Amaras voicemail...

Amara left me a voicemail tonight and she was upset and said "its not talking" and then said,"mommy! i miss you talking" and then she paused and said "Mommy! I love you mommy!" I really really miss my baby and she sounded so sad that I wasn't on the phone since it was a voicemail and not something where we can talk back and forth to each other. Its hard being away from her. I love that she told me that she loved me and missed talking to me. I'm a lucky mom  I cant wait to have her in my life again. I miss our daily adventures and snuggling up to her.

My life seems empty without her. She really is my best friend. I love her with all my heart and there is a huge gap with her gone and i don't know what to do with myself most of the time. Life really is different with her gone and I'm not the same person as i used to be in the past when i was young. I could never go back to a life like that. She changed me. I love her. I will go to the ends of the earth for her. 

Note to Brian: missing my baby

I just had a strong urge to cuddle with Mara and wrap her in my arms. Please give her a big hug for me and tell her that I love her. If she squeals and tries to get free love on her more lol

How have your days been?

Mine have been good. Missing Mara a lot. It's to quiet, I have no one to distract me anymore. And I find that I really love having an excuse to have to focus on less stressful things in life. 

I was just saying she makes me feel like a kid again. And right now I'm so sick of school that I would welcome a distract from her then to do anything I'm supposed to do.